Author: Rusty Evans

  • Chapter One

    from the book The Democracy of Violence

    by Tom Sant

    Chapter One

    Rex Laird sat in a small boat, rocking as it rose and fell in the heaving waters of the South Pacific. He was thinking about the men he was going to kill. And about the men who wanted to kill him. 

    It was just past daybreak on Friday, August 7, 1942. Around him, heavy artillery boomed and men scrambled across the grey decks of warships. The massive guns of destroyers and cruisers belched flame intermittently, bombarding several islands to the south. Strapped into combat packs, rifles at port arms, helmets pulled low, six thousand men shifted across the decks of troop carriers, assembling into rough formations, slinging their weapons over their shoulders, climbing down nets into Higgins boats.

    To a bird floating on thermals above the ocean, or to a Zero cruising on a scouting run, or even to a god perched among the thin clouds with thunderbolts tucked beneath his arm, the armada below would have appeared formidable indeed: eighty-two large ships and innumerable small landing craft assembled in a remote corner of the Pacific, holding thousands of men armed for combat. But there were no birds watching. The bombardment had scared them away. And there was no Jap Zero. The Japanese had been unaware of the armada perched on the horizon until the shelling started. And there were no gods watching, either. The gods were neither interested nor amused.

    “Thumbs up! Thumbs up!” the Marine platoon leaders screamed. “Keep your hands vertical! You can’t kill no Japs with broken fingers! Thumbs up!”  

    And the men crawled over the sides of the ships, down the netting, dropping the final few feet into bobbing boats. Dog tags flopping around their necks, they were loaded with equipment: most had rifles, bayonets, and cartridge belts; the riflemen all had two hand grenades clipped to their belts; others carried the forty-pound tubes and water jackets of heavy machine guns; while others humped Browning automatic rifles, mortar tubes, bipods, base plates, shells and boxes of ammunition, survival rations, canteens and mess kits, first-aid pouches, shovels, and brass compasses. They carried personal items, too, stuffed in waterproof combat packs: extra socks, pictures of wives and girlfriends, hunting knives brought from home, lucky pennies, packs of cigarettes and lighters, and even a few pocket-sized Bibles. 

    All together several thousand Marines crouched in hundreds of landing craft. Thousands more strained against the railings of transport ships. Some of them were shouting and whooping, eager to start the biggest adventure of their lives. Some fidgeted with their equipment, tightening a strap or checking the bolt on their rifle. Some just stared stonily at the distant island they were scheduled to attack. 

    A few of them prayed for divine help in slaughtering as many of the enemy as possible. They no longer identified as farmers or truck drivers or gas station attendants or students or grocery store clerks. They saw themselves as divine warriors. They were United States Marines. They were champions. They were invincible. They wanted to kill. Burning with hate for the Japanese, they wanted to avenge Pearl Harbor and Wake Island and Bataan. They envisioned fighting their way through enemy troops, mowing them down like hay before a scythe, leaving corpses splayed on the beaches and in the jungle, rotting banquets for crabs and rats. That was their vision. To these few, hatred blazed like a divine calling. For them, there was no fear of dying, only a sense that they must avoid being killed so that they could be more efficient in delivering the savage wrath of their nation and their god against an implacable enemy. And since the vast majority had never seen combat, it was easy to fantasize about delivering the wrath of America and of God on the heads of the Japanese.

    But many more prayed just to survive. Their visions were darker: crawling out of the Higgins boat to be cut down immediately in the sand, bleeding out as the surf rolled their body back and forth beneath the sweltering sun. 

    And hundreds of them were simply numb, stunned by the unbelievable situation they were in. Ears ringing from hours of shelling by Navy destroyers, crammed shoulder to shoulder in a landing craft with three dozen other Marines, they stared glassily at the empty distance, at the immediate future, at nothing.  

    Sgt. Rex Laird was one among those thousands of Marines. From his position near the front of a landing craft, he peered over the edge at the island in the distance. As a squad leader, Laird would go over first. His men would follow.

    The island looked exactly like hundreds of other Pacific islands. Lines of dark green palm trees crisscrossing each other in row after row near the shore. A solid mass of jungle behind. Green hills rising steeply in the distance. It looked like any place. It looked like no place. But he expected their target, Beach Red, would live up to its name within a few minutes of their landing.

    He looked at his best friend and mentor, Gunnery Sergeant Virgil Merritt. Merritt was twenty years his senior, a combat veteran from the Great War, a man who had seen fighting and death. 

    Laird asked in a quiet voice, “You were at the company briefing, right? What is this place, anyway?”

    “It’s called Guadalcanal,” Merritt said.

    “Yeah, yeah, I know that. I heard that, too, but I mean what is it? What makes it so damn important? What does Guadalcanal even mean, anyway?”

    “Guadalcanal? I think it’s a native word. It means the ass end of nowhere.  Or welcome to hell. Something like that.”

    Laird couldn’t help snorting with amusement. “Sounds about right.”

    Just then a few of the big guns roared again, shaking the wooden walls of the landing craft. Shells whirred overhead with a locomotive racket toward the island. After a pause, the men in the boat could feel the enormous concussion. 

    The naval bombardment had started before dawn, three hours earlier, leaving a smoky haze on the water. Now the shelling was more staccato. Each blast stood alone, even more percussive for being isolated. 

    In the murky morning light, the ocean was the color of strong, dark beer. It rolled beneath them in big, slow heaves that made the landing craft lurch up and then skid down into a trough. It was rhythmic, almost like leaning against the breast of some huge animal as it breathed steadily in and out. The landing craft, loaded with nearly fifty Marines, circled in slow, counterclockwise patterns, waiting for the signal to attack. 

    “So is there a canal there?” Laird asked.

    “Couple of rivers, according to the map I saw. But no, no canal.”

    In the background, they could hear voices screaming at other Marines who were scrambling down the loading nets:  “Hands vertical! Thumbs up! You can’t shoot with broken fingers.” 

    “Why’s this place so damned important?” Laird asked.

    Merritt shrugged. “Fucking Japs are building an aircraft runway on the island which could raise hell with our ships. Anyway, the yellow bastards seem to want it, so we’re not going to let them have it.”

    As the landing craft lurched up to a peak, Laird peered over the gunwale again to catch another glimpse of the island that was their destination. All he could see was a bright white line of beach, the black smudge of dense forest, and a mountain in the background. Buttons of flame were stitched across the landscape where the shelling had ignited trees or maybe buildings. Earlier they had seen a huge ball of flame erupt, possibly where a Japanese ammunition dump or fuel depot had been hit. Now that spot just smoldered, sending up a dense column of black smoke.

    Laird leaned against his pack and slid down the wall. His Springfield was propped next to him, the fingers of his right hand gently curled around the barrel. He was already soaked with sweat, partly from the humidity and partly from nerves. Virgil Merritt looked all right and sounded all right, too, intense and serious like he usually was, but not panicked.

    Laird looked around the craft at the men in his squad. They made up part of Battery C of the 10th Marines, 1st Marine Division. He had been promoted to gunnery sergeant and put in charge of this team a year earlier in San Diego. This was their first combat. He felt protective of the men in his squad. He didn’t feel like their leader, exactly, although by rank he was. But he was the same age as most of them, younger than a couple, and felt more like their older brother than their boss. He thought of them as his “men,” but they were barely more than children. Eighteen, nineteen years old. Sunburned faces still pocked with acne. Skinny arms and legs, even though they were fit and strong. Haunted eyes skittering around the landing craft, looking at other men’s faces, the island, their feet. At nothing.

    Cpl. Dominic Salerno was fingering a string of beads, muttering to himself. Laird watched him awhile until Salerno, perhaps sensing his sergeant’s eyes on him, glanced up. He smiled a half-smile and shrugged slightly as if to say, What the hell? Can’t hurt, right?

    Laird nodded. 

    Abner Pullum was crouched against the wall of the boat. A pool of vomit lay at his feet. Whether it was the rolling sea or the sick feeling of terror in his guts, something had made him lose his breakfast. 

    Elmer Frawley was sharpening the bayonet at the end of his Springfield. Ove Andersson, the biggest man in the platoon, had the BAR in his arms and two spare magazines draped over his shoulders in a double canvas satchel. He was staring straight ahead, looking intently at something only he could see. Arnie Aldridge and George Pennington were jammed in next to Andersson, talking quietly. The two unlikeliest friends in the platoon, Aldridge was barely literate enough to sign his own name; Pennington had enlisted after his freshman year at Yale. 

    Laird hoped he looked calm. His guts were trembling, the way they used to when he stood in his corner before a fight, smacking his gloves together, waiting for the bell to start round one. But he figured once they hit the beach, it’d be like the ring—the nerves would evaporate and his instincts and training would take over. 

    Or maybe I’ll just take a bullet between the eyes and it won’t matter

    Laird figured the Japs would have the beach well defended. Machine gun emplacements. Artillery. The emperor’s own hand-picked devils waiting for them. Even after a ferocious naval shelling, he figured it’d be a tough landing. 

    “Whaddya think?” Laird asked Merritt. “You feeling good about this?”

    “Sure,” Merritt said. “Hell, yes! Look at how many damn boats we’ve got, how many Marines. More than ten thousand, I heard. I gotta believe we have the Japs seriously outnumbered. So the odds are in our favor. Bound to be a lot of us who make it. Probably most, like ninety percent or more. You know, it’s a craps shoot. But the dice are loaded for us. And anyway, if we don’t make it, then it don’t matter much, right?”

    Laird sighed. “Yeah. It’s just that there’s such a shitload of stuff I was planning to do.”

    “You will.”  

    “Yeah. Probably.”  

    They squatted next to each other in the landing craft for a few minutes. The morning air was already warm, moving toward oppressively hot. Laird felt a trickle of sweat run down his back. He fumbled in a pocket, shook out a cigarette, offered the pack to Merritt.

    “Want one?”  

    Merritt took one, then let Laird light them both from his Zippo. 

    “The condemned men have a last cigarette, eh?” Laird whispered.

    Merritt frowned. “Cut that shit out, Rex,” he whispered. “We’re going to make it. And you don’t want your men hearing that.”

    “Sorry. Gallows humor, you know. Just trying to keep myself from puking up my guts like Pullum.”

    Merritt nodded. He understood. 

    “Look, there’s three possibilities,” Merritt said quietly. He stuck out a thick index finger to start the count. “One: we land, we fight, we survive, we get relieved.”  A second finger popped out. “Two: we get killed.”  He frowned at his fingers for a moment, thinking about that possibility. Then the third finger popped out. “Three: we land, we catch a million-dollar wound, and we go home as heroes.”

    Laird considered the options. He had to admit to himself he wasn’t that crazy about any of them. And he could think of a couple of options Merritt hadn’t mentioned. Getting shot to hell, being left a cripple for life. Or landing, fighting, fighting, fighting, but not getting relieved for a long time. Or being taken prisoner. Or…

    Laird nodded. “Right. Like you said. We got ‘em outnumbered, Virg.”

    Somebody in the boat started shouting. “What the fuck are we waiting for? We’ve been sitting out here for an hour! When the hell are we hitting that goddamn beach?”

    Other voices told him to shut the hell up. One comic said, “If you’re in that big a hurry, why don’t you jump over and start swimming? We’ll catch up to you later!”  

     Merritt and Laird both smiled at that. 

    Salerno poked Laird in the knee. “Sarge, you ever think about how the hell we ended up here?” 

    Laird cocked his head at the question and shrugged. “We can thank the Japs, I suppose. They decided to bomb the shit out of Pearl Harbor and the dominoes started falling. Some of ‘em fell our way.”

    “Yeah, right. But I don’t mean that exactly. I mean our lives. How’d we end up here? I’ve got buddies from home, back in Chicago, they’re not bouncing around in the fucking ocean waiting to attack some god forsaken island. How come we’re here?”

    Laird smiled. “Just fuckin’ lucky, I guess. I mean here we are, an all-expense paid vacation to a tropical island courtesy of Uncle Sam. All we got to do is kill a few thousand Japs and we can lay on the sand and drink rum. Right?”

    “Oh, yeah. That’s all we gotta do, Sarge.”

    Laird sucked smoke deep into his lungs. He looked at the pilot sitting in the stern of the landing craft. He had a rugged face, all slabs and angles. He sat immobile as a Greek statue, as immobile as death, one hand on the throttle, staring straight ahead. He didn’t seem to blink even.  On either side of him, a pair of Marines manned two gun ports, each with Browning automatic rifles. 

    “You don’t think we’re supposed to tip that guy, do you?” Laird said to Merritt, nodding at the pilot. “I think I forgot to bring a nickel.” 

    “You only tip him if it’s a round trip,” Merritt said. “One-way trips are free.”

    Laird laughed the smoke out of his lungs, then scowled at his cigarette as though it had offended him. “Nice. Real nice.”

    Just then shrill whistles came from the other landing boats. Their pilot reached under a greasy T-shirt, pulled out a whistle dangling from a lanyard, and blew his own piercing blast. Suddenly the nose of the boat lurched upward, knocking some of the men off balance as it began roaring up the billowing waves. The three-by-five foot American flag mounted on the stern fluttered to life. Each Marine gripped his weapon, checking that there was a round in the chamber. The landing craft all formed a single line, racing onward at full power, heading toward a scrap of fate called Lunga Point on Guadalcanal. 

  • Possessions

    by Judith Bernstein

    Your possessions stare back at you 

    Blankly, uncomprehendingly,

    Their meaning known only to you.

    Objects to others but to you 

    The gift givers’ ghosts appear, 

    Surprising, comforting, most welcome.

    The pink elephant plate from your sister Diana,

    The Turkish porcelain vase on whose glaze

    Lovers are depicted sitting under a fig tree

    From a Turkish love of a week’s duration,

    The various coffee mugs with faces

    From assorted friends, similarly

    Devoted to coffee and familiar faces.

    The earthenware pot stained with Arizona’s

    Palette of earth colors

    From a fellow traveler to its desert places.

    The Chinese wicker owl 

    Your father bought at a San Francisco Pier One

    When he forgot to buy it on his trip to China.

    A Japanese bowl once filled with fruit

    When it graced a mahogany table

    In your home of origin.

    The wooden kaleidoscope you bought

    For yourself as a craft and then brought

    To the hospital as a distraction 

    From the long pain that followed surgery.

    The Balinese wooden elephant whose legs

    Trunk and ears lift and swivel,

    A gift from your brother who knows

    Your fixation on elephants.

    When you consider the possessions 

    That fill your small apartment  

    You resist the garage sale,

    The neighborhood Peddlers’ Fair, and Craig’s list

    As their departure would bring dispossession

    Of objects that are neither superfluous nor dispensable.

    The empty shelves would stare back at you beseechingly, 

    Begging for the fullness of possessions once again.

  • Human Beings 101

    By Harvey Ardman

    Tobias Crowe was one of the last survivors of the original flock, the dozen or so corvids who had come from Maine and settled in the Springfield Nesting Grounds.

    For nearly twenty years he had been responsible for fledgling education.

    Now he was about to retire. This was the first day of his last year.

    His feathers were almost entirely gray. His left wing ached in damp weather. Long flights left him tired for the rest of the day. His arthritis was making it painful to perch. He had no illusions about what that meant.

    The flock would continue.

    It always did.

    But it would have to continue without him.

    On the first morning of the school year, Tobias perched on the Learning Tree and studied the ten young fledglings lined up before him.

    Some still carried patches of nesting down. A few shifted nervously from foot to foot. One was whispering to his neighbor. Another was staring into the distance and clearly paying attention to nothing at all.

    Tobias smiled.

    Some things never changed.

    “Good morning, boys and girls.”

    The chatter stopped immediately.

    “Welcome to Springfield Corvid Elementary School. During the coming weeks I intend to teach you everything you need to know about being a good crow. Efficient flight. Opportune food acquisition. Rewarding exploration. Essential community responsibilities. Relations with other species and the outside world.”

    Several fledglings groaned.

    “Unfortunately,” Tobias continued, “there will be no examinations.”

    The groans instantly became cheers.

    “However, life itself will give you plenty of opportunities to embarrass yourselves.”

    The cheers faded considerably.

    “Today we begin with a field trip.”

    That earned renewed enthusiastic squawking.

    “A young human family is moving into the old Harkness House. They will be our neighbors. Since human beings are one of the most important species on Earth, so far as crows are concerned, I think it appropriate that your first lesson be Human Beings 101.”

    He launched himself from the branch and the fledglings followed.

    A few minutes later they settled into a maple tree overlooking the Harkness property.

    Below them, a man was carrying boxes into the house. A woman was unloading paper bags from a car. Two children chased each other through the yard. A small brown dog ran in frantic circles around everyone.

    Tobias allowed the scene to unfold for several minutes. “All right,” he said. “Tell me what you see.”

    Nancy raised a wing. “A giant nest.”

    “Correct.”

    Dexter immediately added, “A ridiculously giant nest.”

    “Also correct.”

    The class laughed.

    “Why is it so big?” Tobias asked.

    Arthur raised a wing. “Because people are bigger than we are.”

    “Good.”

    Then Pauline shared an insight. “They have more stuff.”

    “Excellent.”

    Lester frowned, then his curiosity got the best of him.” What kind of stuff?”

    Tobias looked at the house. “Mostly things they don’t need.”

    The fledglings laughed again.

    “But some things they do need,” Tobias added. “Food. Clothing. Tools. Memories.”

    Several young heads tilted.

    “How do you store a memory?” Betty asked.

    Tobias considered. “I’m not entirely sure. But humans seem to spend a lot of effort doing it.”

    The fledglings studied the house with renewed interest.

    Peter pointed toward the yard. “The human fledglings are playing.”

    “Good.” Said Tobias. “But can you be more specific?”

    Peter focused on the running children. “They’re playing tag,” he said. “Just like we do.”

    “Very good.”

    Lester spoke up. “They’re not playing tag,” he said. “They’re playing hide-and-seek.”

    “Just like we do,” Peter repeated, winning the exchange.

    Pauline gazed at the yard, concerned. “The little one has tripped,” she observed.

    “She’s hurt herself,” Peter said.

    “She’s crying,” Lester said.

    “Look at the door,” Pauline suggested. “Here comes the mother.”

    The fledglings watched with great interest as the human mother quietly and lovingly tended to her child and comforted her.

    “My mother acted exactly the same way when I bumped my beak on a branch,” Lester said, in some surprise.

    “They often act as we would,” Tobias pointed out. “Of course they don’t realize that.”

    didn’t realize that—until now,” Peter admitted.

    “They don’t teach their fledgling how to fly,” Dexter countered. 

    “I think they do something rather comparable,” Tobias said. “When their fledglings are old enough to be independent, they teach them how to operate those machines—they show them how to drive.”

    Dexter opened his beak, as if to argue with his teacher. Then he thought better of it and closed his beak.

    “That’s very interesting,” Peter said. “So they’re like us in that way too.”

    Tobias offered him a beakly smile. “Good observation, Peter.”

    Dexter opened his beak again, then decided that for once in his life, to resist the urge to argue. Tobias noted this with some satisfaction.

    “They act like us,” Lester said, “but they sure don’t look like us.”

    The fledglings nodded in agreement. “No feathers,” Pauline said.

    Dexter decided to change the subject. “Look at the dog,” he said. “He’s chasing butterflies.”

    “You’re right, Dexter,” Tobias said. “Thank  you for pointing that out.”

    “What’s a dog?” asked Franklin.

    “A pet.”

    “What is a pet?”

    Tobias sighed. “That’s a difficult question.” He thought for a moment. “A pet is a friend who lives with a human.”

    The fledglings seemed pleased by this answer. “Why don’t they keep crows as pets?” one asked.

    “They’ve tried.”

    “What happened?”

    “We refused.” 

    The class erupted in laughter.

    For the next hour, while Tobias exercised a painful wing, they observed the family.

    They discussed clothing.

    Vehicles.

    Groceries.

    Neighborhoods.

    Schools.

    Bicycles.

    Dogs.

    Questions came faster than Tobias could answer them.

    Why did humans cut grass?

    Where did they live before they came here?

    Why did they build roads?

    Why did they change their feathers—clothes—every day?

    Why did they make so many strange noises?

    Tobias answered what he could. He realized no crow understood everything about human beings, no matter how long or carefully he observed them. He also realized that human beings didn’t understand everything about crows either, not even close.

    Eventually Betty asked the question Tobias had been expecting. “Are humans dangerous?”

    The tree became quiet.

    Tobias looked toward the family below.

    The father had picked up one of the children and was spinning her in circles.

    The child’s laughter drifted upward.

    “Sometimes,” Tobias said.

    “Do they hurt crows?”

    “Some do.”

    “Why?”

    “We don’t know.”

    The fledglings shifted uneasily.

    “But most don’t.”

    “How can you spot the dangerous ones?”

    Tobias smiled. “That takes practice.”

    The children below began chasing the dog.

    The dog began chasing the children.

    Nobody appeared to know who was pursuing whom.

    “They seem silly,” Dexter observed.

    “They are silly.”

    “They seem confused.”

    “They often are.”

    “They seem to spend a lot of time playing.”

    “They do.”

    The fledglings watched for a while. The children laughed.

    Finally Nancy said, “They even sound a little like us.”

    Tobias looked at her. “Yes.”

    The class grew thoughtful.

    “They have families,” Betty said.

    “Yes.” Tobias took a closer look at her. She looked a lot like her grandmother, Rebecca, whom he had taught many years ago.

    “They live in groups.”

    “Yes. They call them neighborhoods.”

    “They have schools.”

    “Yes.”

    “They have leaders.”

    “Yes.”

    “They argue.”

    “Constantly.”

    “They make friends.”

    “Certainly.”

    “They help each other.”

    “Often.”

    The fledglings fell silent.

    Below them, the family continued moving into their new home.

    At last Peter spoke. He had an observation.” It sounds like they’re imitating us.”

    The class laughed.

    Tobias chuckled too. “Or perhaps we’re imitating them.”

    “Which is it?” Peter asked.

    Tobias looked out across Springfield. The houses. The roads. The trees. The birds. The people. All sharing the same place. “I suspect,” he said, “that it’s simply the way life works.”

    The fledglings considered that.

    Then Betty raised a final wing. She hesitated, considering whether or not to ask the question. Finally it came out. “Do humans know how closely we watch them?”

    Tobias smiled. “Not generally.”

    “Do they know how much we understand?”

    “Not generally.”

    “Do they know we’re talking about them right now?”

    “Definitely not.”

    The class seemed amused by this.

    Tobias looked once more at the young family below.

    Then he turned back to his students.

    “The truth is that human beings and crows have been neighbors for a very long time.”

    “How long?”

    “Longer than anyone remembers.”

    “We need them,” Tobias said. “And I like to think they need us too.”

    The fledglings waited.

    It sounded important.

    “Why?”

    Tobias looked at them. Because it was his final year. Because one day these young birds would inherit the flock. Because someday he would be gone. And because this was perhaps the most important lesson he had ever taught. “Because,” he said quietly, “a world shared is usually better than a world occupied alone.”

    For a moment none of the fledglings spoke.

    Then Dexter raised a wing. “Does that mean class is over?”

    Tobias laughed. As usual, Dexter was being impatient.. “Yes, Dexter. Class is over.”

    The fledglings exploded from the tree in every direction, arguing loudly about dogs, bicycles, giant nests, and whether human beings were smart enough to understand crows.

    Tobias remained behind.

    For several minutes he sat alone on the branch, considering this new generation. Three decades ago, he had taught their grandparents. These fledglings were a lot like them but also different. 

    Below him, the family carried another load of boxes into their new home. The little dog barked at absolutely nothing. One of the children waved at a passing crow. Tobias watched them for a while. Then he spread his aging wings and headed back toward the nesting grounds. There were still many lessons left to teach. But Human Beings 101 had started rather well this year. May it always be so. 

  • Winter Gifts

    by Judith Bernstein

    Judith entered her poem “Winter Gifts’ in the “333/33” February/26 writing contest (for poetry, 33 words or fewer)

    Winter Gifts

    Winter rains bestowed unexpected gifts:

    Green hills dotted with black cows,

    Meadows alive with swathes 

    Of yellow mustard,

    And cliffs alit with the fire of poppies,

    Feasts for our screen-blighted eyes. 

  • The Letter

    by Jim Livingston

    “The Letter” was a submission from Jim Livingston in the “A Letter Home” writing contest.

    2226 CE. Will Steel, Chief Engineer

    On board the Forlorn Hope

    Somewhere in the Veda Quadrant.

    Hey Harvey,

    I recently signed onto a cargo freighter running routes between the outer colonies and the inner core worlds. I’m the chief engineer, assisted by one overworked maintenance droid on an old rustbucket of a ship held together by recycled wiring and wishful thinking.

    My work backlog was finally thinning out when our assistant navigator, a male Veccatorian named Clacker—you know, the crab-like species with giant lobster claws—decided to show off a purchase he picked up on shore leave at Thelos Prime.

    He proudly announced he’d bought “the strongest aphrodisiac in the known galaxy.”

    That should have been my warning that karma was about to rip a hole in space time.

    Clacker planned to use it on Chief Officer Vrix, a female Trixtian who looks like a seven-foot praying mantis with anger-management issues. Apparently his claw-flexing courtship routine hadn’t impressed her much and he’d gotten rather desperate.

    Sadly, lobster claws are not precision jar-opening tools. The bottle slipped out of his claws, shattered on the deck, and exploded in a cloud of pink fairy dust, quite pretty actually.

    Normally anything sold on a station concourse is fake, diluted, or radioactive, but I still grabbed my respirator and put it on just in case.

    Unfortunately, I had just repaired the life-support system and it worked perfectly. Within seconds, the entire system was circulating concentrated, extra-strength alien sex pollen shipwide.

    At first I thought, Great. Now I have to clean the filters again. Then everything went catastrophically sideways. When I say sideways I mean a complete shift into the forth dimension.

    First, a strange noise behind me caught my attention. I turned around and saw Vrix pinning Clacker to a mess table while making noises like industrial machinery destroying itself.

    Meanwhile cargo handler Croble—our half-machine, half-bird female cyborg—started whispering sweet nothings to my maintenance droid. And that crazy droid whispered back.

    Then Second Officer Chirp Nexus, a blue-skinned female Wexlian with pointed ears, silky silver hair, and serious emotional issues screamed out my name.

    A moment later the captain roared. Captain Zeta Sharpclaw is a tiger-like, female Felonsian with claws capable of opening canned food without the can opener. She came charging down the corridor yelling my name like I owed her money, my right arm, and all future progeny.

    At that moment I realized I was the only sane person left onboard, which was deeply disturbing. So I ripped out the contaminated filters and sprinted for the nearest airlock while the rest of the crew collectively lost their freaking minds.

    Doc Snerd ran past right then screaming while Bubbles, our twelve-tentacled chief purser, chased after him blurping romantic whooping noises and drooling all over the floor.

    Dammit, I almost made it.

    Captain Sharpclaw and Chirp tackled me outside the airlock. My mask flew off during the struggle, which was the exact moment my life took a sharp left turn into the twilight zone.

    I managed to space the contaminated filters. After that, my memory becomes extremely unreliable. I won’t attempt to reconstruct what might be prosecutable crimes in most systems.

    Long story short, Vrix and Clacker are now engaged, Croble and my maintenance droid are apparently dating, and Dr. Snerd has barricaded himself inside his quarters while Bubbles waits outside grunting love songs. I woke up the next morning covered in scratches and bite marks with both the captain and Chirp asleep in my bed. The captain was purring.

    I’m now seriously considering a transfer to a mining colony entirely populated by rocks.

    Best wishes your slightly damaged and deranged friend,


                Will Steel

  • The Summer of ’69

    By John Nuckel

    John entered “The Summer of ’69” in the April/26 “Writing Conflict” contest.

    Two weeks ago, my attorney daughter casually mentioned “Grandma’s New York Supreme Court ruling.” I was shocked to hear about it. My brother and sister were unaware as well. My daughter showed me the files concerning my late mother, Rose Nuckel. I was stunned.

    It took me back to the summer of 1969, when I was ten years old, the middle child of five. My parents had split, and we were living with relatives in Bayshore New York. My father came to see us once. He brought presents and had a beard. I was afraid to speak to him. I had good reason. I knew he was a violent man.

    I was not happy when our mother announced we were going to move with him to Florida, I was panic stricken.  

    We moved into an apartment complex in Boca Raton. The girls had one bedroom; my brothers and I shared another. My parents had a room down the hall. It all seemed so normal. Until it wasn’t. We lived in a war zone where he beat us and my mother daily. 

    He was in jail for a while. It was good to be rid of him, but we had no money. A neighbor’s dog had puppy’s and we begged our mom for one. She must have wanted to add a little joy to our lives because one morning she surprised us with a cute white puppy. Of course, we couldn’t afford it. Soon enough the puppy was gone. A few nights later we ate dog treats for dinner. Doggie Donuts.  There were many sleepless nights crying in bed from hunger.

    One early morning my uncle Michael shook me awake. We were leaving and he was there to protect us from our father. 

    I never saw my father again. He died in 1981. Good riddance.

    He’s a footnote in my life story. The stars have been strong women. None stronger than my mother Rose. 

    Back in New York we moved into a motel where the six of us slept in two beds. It was tight, but I felt safe for the first time in memory. We had dinners at Howard Johnson; all you can eat chicken or fish. After we ate mom stuffed leftover chicken or fish into her bag for tomorrow’s dinner. We were running out of money and relatives to stay with.

    She applied for public assistance and was turned down on August 12th, 1969. A single, battered woman with five kids was turned away by New York State because she hadn’t spent a continuous year in the state after living there her entire life. She took New York State to court. 

    My daughter showed me the case.

    Nuckel V. Wyman: Supreme Court, Special Term, Nassau County September 8th, 1969

    The ruling cited a recent U.S. Supreme Court ruling and read in part: “The basis of the Supreme Court’s ruling was that such statutes violated the equal protection clause of the Fourteenth Amendment by impinging upon the rights of welfare applicants to travel freely from state to state.”

    She won!

    Shortly after, her ruling was cited in Harris V. Wyman. Ms. Harris was denied benefits as well. It was the precedent in Nuckel V. Wyman that won her case. There have been numerous citations since.

    The Nassau County social services department tried to deny benefits to my mother despite a U.S. Supreme Court ruling then tried to deny Ms. Harris despite a New York State Supreme Court ruling.

    They must have thought women too ignorant or timid to fight for their rights. They didn’t count on Rose Nuckel. She didn’t seek to change the law. She  wanted to feed her children. 

    I remember sitting on wooden benches with my brothers and sisters during that summer waiting for mom to come out of a big room. I didn’t know until recently that the big room was a court room, and my mother was standing in front of a judge fighting for her children. It was her courage that led to relief for countless mothers and their children after her.

    Mom never spoke of the case or much about the horrible days with my father. She was a tough Irish woman. We used to joke that her catchphrase was “I’ll give you something to cry about.” 

    There was no time to look back raising five kids on her own. She worked six days a week and slept on the couch of our little apartment throughout my childhood. I never imagined I could respect her more, but learning what she did reinforced how strong she was and how much we were loved.

    https://case-law.vlex.com/vid/nuckel-v-wyman-no-886882755

  • A Walk in the Park

    By David Schwab

    “Going to the Park is a selected entry from the March/26 “Dialogue” writing contest.

    “Olivia! Pupito! Do you want to go for a walk to the park?” Dad asked.

    “What do you think? Fat boy.” Pupito smirked.

    “Don’t call the Dad that, Pupito; he’s a good dog dad.”

    “Well, I had him all trained before you showed up,” Pupito said.

    “Your place now is with your Dad and your Mom. These guys are my people now.”

    “I heard Dad say Here we go,” Olivia saidDo we always have to jump up and down? Can’t we line up and get a starting treat?”

    “We don’t get a starting treat anymore, that’s for puppies,” said Olivia.

    “There’s the garage door rolling up, and I want to be the first one to pee on the mailbox pole,” Pupito said.

    “You boys and your exhibitionist peeing.”

    “See, what did I just say. Dad just had to tell you to watch where you’re pointing that thing.”

    “Please don’t act like you don’t like to smell everybody’s pee; we all do.”

    “We all don’t have to wave that thingy around.”

    “ I get to ride in the Royal Barge and observe my kingdom, you peasant,” Olivia said with a huff.

    “I’m the alpha male in our little troupe, here today,” said Pupito.

    “You’re just lucky those handsome German Shepherds are tied to that car.”

    “They’re tied to the car, so I don’t take them down a few notches,

    ” Pupito said, with his tail in the air.

    “Right, big shot, and you’re not delusional at all.”

    “I could, Oh, wait, I smell fresh pee right over there,” Pupito said.“I’m not going to lower myself to smell what you think is fresh; I’ll find my own, thank you.”

    “Wait, don’t move.”

    “Why are you growling, Pupito?”

    “Those two big dogs are coming this way. I have a history with these two. They are sneaky shits. Here they come, protect the Dad, I’ll take care of them.”

    “Be careful, Pupito! Look out, one of them is distracting you, and the other one is sneaking up behind you.”

    “Stay back, I got this.”

    “There they go, you’re barking scared them off, Oh Pupito, you’re so brave.”

    “We showed those two not to mess with us.”

    “ You are my hero, Pupito.”

    “Well, your Highness, I will always be your champion.”

  • My Dearest Sister Hava

    By Sharon Sheltzer

    This tense, yet wonderful letter was chosen as the winner of the SLO NW May “A Letter Home” writing contest.

    Mr dearest Hava,

    I pray fervently, hoping you did not wait for me at our meeting point. Taking each step with you, I dream you are being guided through the forest and will reach the mountain pass before dawn. If you make it through, you will be the last of our family. You must. Name your children after Papa and Mama.

    In the wildest hope that this letter will reach you, know only death could prevent me from following through with our grand plan. Perhaps there is a god—he hasn’t been there for the big stuff, but how else to explain I had a piece of precious paper and pen in hand when they burst through the door?

    It is dark and cramped in here. I can barely scratch out words, and my knees are crushed against the splintered beams. My hand trembles as the Germans pound the floor and our ceiling convulses. They have lost their minds with rage, screaming, “We saw the smoke! We know you’re in here!” If they check the stove and see no embers, they may suspect it’s our passageway to the sub-floor dug-out. It will all be over, and worth it if we take some of those bastards with us, and you make it to freedom. 

    Ari wedges his face into my side and reminds me there is something to live for. His chest rattles from pneumonia, and he tries to stifle the sound. At least his wheeze muffles the racket of boots above, getting closer. A small crack in the foundation lets in a thin stream of light and air, allowing me to see this page and some relief from the stench of death on this street. My resistance sister Sarit is in the space behind the post, and the faint shadow of her shoe emerges, silently tapping. We are all that remains of the fighters in this block.

    A rat scutters by and I drool for the meat.  

    Dear sister, I thought we were beyond fear, but it roils my empty gut today. Doors are slammed and walls torn apart. Their rage cannot be greater than my own. I take pleasure in their frustration. Beasts. There are three of them, by their voices. An axe. Each swing threatens my grip on this pen. 

    Boots loud. Silence. Stove door rattling.

    P.S.

    We waited two hours after they left. I saw your beautiful smile and heard your laughter from when we chased sheep over the lush hills. Does such a color as green still exist? And sunshine? I tried to remember, but the damp chill of winter seeped into my bones from the dank ground of the makeshift bunker—would it be my grave? I know love still exists because I would die for you and Ari, but what about goodness? Surely it has disappeared from this earth.

    Dear sister, as with our luck escaping the farm, I was blessed again. They fired a barrage of shots into the dirt, dust swirling so thick that they didn’t see us with their flashlights. We choked into our elbow crooks and they marched off, either satisfied they had eliminated us vermin or angry we had escaped. In case one remained guarding the front door, Sarit and I dug for three hours under the foundation into what used to be a side garden plot, saving Ari his remaining energy and stopping at every sound. Nails ripped, we waited for the street patrol to return to their comfortable houses and listened. The alley was empty. I knew where water could be found and brought some back for Ari. His eyes opened and shone with relief. I stuffed this letter into my bra. The icy wind propelled us to another bunker, where we begged our way in and I finished this letter. 

    I will search for a courier, so you know I survived another day. Send word back if possible.

    Your loving sister

  • Deathbed

    by Rob Sheely

    Rob entered this story in the February/26 writing contest “333/33” (prose, fewer than 333 words).

    “No one ever said on their deathbed, ‘I wish I’d spent more time at the office.’”

    Bob Green had heard the saying before, but somehow when his wife texted it to him on this particular Saturday, it sank in. 

    Enough, he said to himself. He closed his laptop on the big proposal he was preparing and stood up from his desk. He grabbed his jacket, hustled out the office door, and made it to the soccer field in time to see his daughter Elaine score the winning goal. 

    On Monday, when his boss said, “Where’s that proposal?” Bob said, “I decided to put my family first. And because I did, I got to see my daughter kick the winning goal.”

    “That’s admirable,” said his boss. “But you just cost us a 25 million-dollar contract. You’re fired.”

    Bob had the bad fortune to experience his spiritual awakening during a tight labor market, so he had no luck finding a new job. His wife was understanding—until his unemployment ran out. 

    “I can’t be with a man who doesn’t pull his weight,” she said, handing him divorce papers. 

    Because he’d exhausted his savings, Bob didn’t have the money for a decent lawyer, and she took him to the cleaners. After the dust settled, all he could afford was a shabby studio apartment in a bad part of town. His kids hated visiting him there, and when he went to his daughter’s soccer games, she pretended she didn’t know him. 

    The only job he could find was stocking shelves at Walmart. It beat his body, and within six months, he was buying Percocets off his coworkers. Unfortunately, one of them turned out to be a counterfeit pill made with Chinese fentanyl. 

    That night, on the sagging sofa that would serve as his deathbed, as the life drained from his body, with only the angels to hear his dying words, Bob looked up to heaven and said, “Goddamnit, I wish I’d spent more time at the office!”